You are one month old now. Actually, you are one month and 2 days today.

I am still nervous. I am so nervous, I get an upset stomach during the day, when I am alone with you in our bedroom. I am thankful, and fearful both at the same time. I am thankful for all the great healthy and peaceful hours and minutes, but fearful about all the unexpected, unpredictable upcoming hours and minutes. This is especially if your father is not home.

You hate being cold! You scream, cry or are uncomfortable if you are cold. I wish I had known this when I was getting you clothes. All your clothes are some newborn normal cotton clothes that were available in the market, at Oosh Koosh, Carter’s or Baby’s R Us stores.

You had some episodes of tummy pain, usually in the evening hours. Actually, you are a bit uncomfortable around the evening hours. This reminds me of “Dr. Jekyl and Mr. Hyde” novel. I am now determined to read that novel some time this year, after I am done with David Copperfield.

I always think about your teenage years. I doubt if you would be interested in being fully and warmly covered in warm clothes even in the coldest days of the year. Teenage girls love to be half naked, and show their beautiful bodies. In fact, I will be the happiest if you do not see the need to show off your body. The reason is, I will know that you have so much self-esteeme that you never feel the need to make yourself uncomfortable for the attention of the others. But hey, I am almost forty years now, and I still feel the need to show my body!! I confess, I do not have a strong self-esteeme, so, what can I expect from a normal and healthy teenage girl.

Your father and I adore you. Your father just asks you again and again, “where were you in the past forty years of my life?” On my side, I am so nervous, I can’t fully enjoy.

Hey, by the way, if you ever decide to have a child (and this would be a great decision; kids are gifts of the Lord), I can share my own experience with you. Do it when you know you are extremely patient and calm, have some time to spend for and with the baby dedicatedly, when you are financially -rather- stable, and preferrably have one person to help you. Make sure that the father of the baby is a responsible and caring man; you and the baby will need it. And, there is a checklist of 6 items you need to check:

1. If the baby is hungry. I can tell you about all signs if you are interested.

2. If the baby has a soiled diaper. This is easy to check. 🙂

3. If the baby is cold or warm. In your case, it took some time for us to discover HOW sensitive you are to the cold weather. We realized it when you were just two days old, but we couldn’t believe how bad it was up until yesterday!

4. If the baby has pain somewhere in her body (including tummy pain). Your father and I can tell you more about it.

5. Baby wants to sleep. Believe it or not, babies don’t know how to sleep. They might need help!

6.  Baby needs to be hugged. 🙂

And…you have to be extremely patient, and trust your baby, and pay close attention to the signs. Some items are easy to try. Some others are not. Again, just be patient, and pay attention to the baby.

Some photos of your one-month anniversary should be uploaded on photo.mansoori.ca. Your grandma in Iran is crazy about you, and asks for more and more photos. Don’t be surprised if you see hundreds of photos of yourself within a couple of months!