Pregnancy is such a funny thing! I feel nauseated, and tired, and….soooo lazy.

The matter is, I have lots of work to do for my school.

Eating is a big challenge, and I know I have to eat healthy and sufficiently for Soli or Goli to grow. She or he relies solely on me for getting the nutritions, and well, this is the first responsiblity as you start having a child.

I haven’t forgotten the responsiblity towards myself either. I am trying as hard as I can to study and do my homework.

Accomplishing both, is really difficult. But well, this is mother nature, the stupid mother nature that leaves you with no other option!

At specific stages, the problems are no one’s fault. During puberty, during pregnancy, when you loose a beloved one, or if your beloved ones are sick, you can never blame anyone. It is all about this damn funny mother nature.

I think she is still in its learning curve, and never bothered to improve the world it created!

Well, there is no need to fight against it at this point. I have to accept it all, and do as best as I can.

Soli or Goli jaan, my biggest concern is about your health. People ask me whether I want a girl or a boy. The more I think about it, the more I realize I really do not care. Boys are as lovely as girls.

My biggest and deepest wish is for your health. I will know more about it in 5~6 weeks.

At that point, my nausea will start getting much better, or at least this is everyone says, unless if I am one of those very unlucky women whos nausea takes all over their pregnancy!

The very good thing about nausea is that, the risk of miscarriage is much lower if there is nausea. Nausea means that hormones (needed to keep the baby in the womb) are on a surge.

Anyways….I am fighting to accomplish my goals and keep Soli/Goli healthy.

I will be back.

Well, it seems that we both like it better when I am not home, and somewhere at school studying!!

I can eat better at least.

I am still too concerned about the risk of miscarriage, which is likely at my age of 38.

I am also nervous about the amnio test to ensure Goli/Soli has not chromosome defects.

I am going with one of the best doctors, whom I can trust. But well, the nightmare is, if there is a miscarriage because of the amnio and the results come back normal!!

The risk of no amnio will keep me awake until soli/goli is born.

I am trying to eat as much as I can. And, now I know as long as I am not home, I can be rather productive.

As I said, we both like it better when we are not home.

Well, dear Soli or Goli, I don’t think you are made for family life. And..I am happy for that. Independant people are always admirable.

I will be back.

Today was the first day of living together, and not for one another!

So, we woke up at around 9 in the morning, did a little bit of cleaning around in the bedroom, went down for a yummy breakfast, went out for a little bit of walk, and sat down to review accounting!!

Except the feeling of nausea, I have no other complaints today.

Last night, I let two of my closest friends know about my pregnancy. Neda and Negar, as well as Pouria and Neda’s mom were so excited about the whole matter and we had a big laugh over it.

So, these were the second group of people that Goli or Soli made laugh, and made happy.

The first group were my close family, my mom (exstatic about the news! I have been trying to calm her down), my brother and his wife.

So far, so good.

Let’s just pray for Soli or Goli to be born safe and healthy. It is all about this. The rest of it will take care of itself.

I will be back.

I babysat for a friend today for three hours.

First of all, I was sitting and I helped the child sit by my side. My mom panicked; she thought I might have a miscarriage because of such carelessness.

I am still fine.

I am also in big concern, I might not have any time for myself, my studies and my work after goli/soli is born.

I promised myself, I will live with him/her, and not for him/her.

After all, he/she needs a strong successful mother.

No news of the baby today. Things are normal. I have to wait till tomorrow afternoon to find out what was observed in my right ovary. It might be quite benign, and just a normal matter of pregnancy. Yet my doctor should confirm.

I am eating cherries, exclusively for me, thanks to Goli/Soli. 🙂

My brother can’t wait to pinch his/her cheeks!! He is asking me to eat a lot to have a chobby baby with big cheeks!

I will be back.

I am 7 weeks and 4 days pregnant today.

Yesterday, for the first time, the heartbeat of the baby could be detected on the u/s. 143 beats! It is fast, but the father says the smaller a creature is, the faster its heart beats. This creature was measured at 1.2 centimeters!

Fantastically, it has a brain, and a heart.

The first person in the family who gave it a name, was my brother, the uncle-to-be of the baby. Soli if it is a boy, and goli if it is a girl!!!! So the name of this weblog.

As I get updates, I will post more.

All I want, is his or her health. The rest, I really, really don’t care.

Will be back…