You still cry in the morning, before going to preschool. You say that you miss me, and that is why you don’t want to go to school.

On Monday, I got really nervous and frustrated and yelled at you in the car. You couldn’t stop crying, and it got even worse. I just reminded to myself that you are just four and a half years old. I was immediately so mad at myself for what I did. I dropped you at school, and apologized for shouting.

I talked to your teacher at school, and she said that you might need more discipline at home, and less toys and treats.

I believe she had a point. For different reasons, I have given you toys and treats as a way of encouraging  you to do things. I guess we went a bit too far, and now you do things just because  you want a treat.

For example, I told you that you would have a prize after you finish level 2 swimming. You couldn’t finish level 2 swimming, and you started yelling at your teacher, and then at me.

So, I had a talk with you on Monday and told you that all kids go to school and all parents go to work. I told you that we cannot change anything about that, and I am really sorry that you get so upset in the mornings.

Now today, I had got you a couple of books, but you started screaming and said that you wanted toys.  I got the books and told you that I would return them. (I won’t. I will just leave them at your preschool for your teachers to read them to you). Then I told you that for a while you wouldn’t get any toys, and that you needed to enjoy the toys that you have already, and other activities. You had a very bad tantrum in the car and screamed and cried for half an hour! But after you ate your dinner at home and got full, you felt better. You hugged me, kissed me and apologized.

This melted my heart. I just love to get you toys every day. But from what I see, this is not good for you, unfortunately.

You are a doll, really adorable, and very smart.